Praying For Rehab For Her

I'M THINKING ABOUT offering to try crystal meth with the woman I love. Also, I might offer to share whatever sexually transmitted diseases, if any, that she might have. (I suspect she does).The obviously insane sounding nature of this very thought is not lost on me. As it is, I am likely never to hear from her again, because by now she has surely realized that I see the big white elephant in the room, which she prefers to pretend isn't there. Her meth addiction, disguised cleverly against a much larger background of apparent normalcy. She does a pretty good job of it, hiding her habit. It can be done, to an extant. A razor blade, a small baggie of powder, and a compact mirror, carefully hidden, used only when necessary, usually about once every six hours for three straight days, before the twenty four hour crash, and another cycle begins again. But helping her remove the stove from her rental house was too much, and I am less naive than she seems to think. The evidence oozes inexorably between the cracks, despite their best efforts at concealment; the routine crashes, the hyper behavior, the skinny body and emaciated face with pockmarked cheeks. The crazy, unstructured schedule, with more activity taking place at night than during the day. We can't go on any longer with both of us pretending, so, its undoubtedly for the best that I never see her again. She'll have to get her help from somewhere else, starting, as it only can, from within her. I have promised God that if I do ever see or talk to her again, which I probably won't, my only effort will be to help, not to exploit. Do loved ones ever round up a posse and stage an intervention for meth? Is meth the primary drug about which people intervene in large insistent gangs? Trying meth with her might force her to accept the reality that I know about her hidden habit, but, at what cost to me? No, that's a bad idea. So is the intervention. She'll have to hit bottom, and decide to climb out. I may never know it that happens, I can only pray pray that it does.