Giving and Receiving Anger

WHEN IT CAME to my attention that someone was angry with me for my critical comments about the Christian religion, I was reminded of my own anger, could empathize, and decided to pay more attention to it.My anger originated in fear, as I reexamine my childhood. I first became afraid of evangelical Christians when I was in grade school, and they started trying to save me. From what I needed saving was unclear to me, but the very thought that some terrible fate awaited me from which I required salvation greatly frightened me. My parents did well protecting from this, but a toxic amount of it slipped through their parental filter, leaving me exposed. When I was a child, crucifixes frightened me; now they merely horrify me. The suffering person makes me tremble with pity and terror. My fear has turned to anger, as fear normally does. Anger that what began as a cult evolved into a culturally dominant religion which adversely impacted my life, a religion predicated upon teh central event of a ritual blood sacrifice, a torturous death whcih mysteriously saves those who accept the ritual as giving grace, shielding willing cowards from the consequences of their own mistakes.My anger manifests with my awareness that the Christian religion has always rejected science, and still does. every time an evangelical votary denies the truth of evolutionary science, or dismisses the reality and importance of climate change, because, after all, the Lord will soon return. People who deny reality in defense of their political and religious beliefs,such as Trump supporters who deny Trump's criminal behavior, while holding him up as a defender of the faith, I reserve special anger for. They have forfeited moral integrity for the sake of political expediency. The Christian faith became fragmented from the beginning. The apostle went in different directions, preaching different messages. The roman Emporer Constantine tried to create canonical unity by having the Bible instituted as the Word of God, by clerical vote,but that didn't last long. The Word of God kept changing with each new edition. Over the centuries, the Bible kept changing, as powerful clerics added and detracted and edited according to their own personal agendas.The church fragmented into hundreds of varieties of the faith, andiIt became increasingly difficult to even know which kind of Christianity to embrace, or which kind to dislike the most.